The Town Scribe

Ever since I finished school and got my new job I have been trying to find something new to chase. I have been taking pleasure in having a calmer pace of life and have enjoyed not really having anything to strive for. I thought that maybe with time something new would come along and my next big thing would just fall into my lap and I would be chasing some new success. Every person I had talked to about this told me something that didn't really satisfy my wonder- everything was so earth centered- "pursue traveling, or marriage, or education"- all things that still focused on me and finding earthly success. This past week I had the blessing of hosting someone in my home for the Pastor's Conference at my church and finally someone told me something else. I was so surprised that such simple advice had not already been given to me and that after such a long struggle, I hadn't thought of it myself. My next big chase is... to glorify God in every single situation of my ...

Went up to Larch Mountain with friends for the first time yesterday and had such a blast. Stuck in the snow//broke a sled//sang by a fire//got a snow exfoliation facial x 4//crazy snowball fight//hot tea//sun//frozen. It's so good to spend time with such great friends. Resolution: do stuff like this more often. Result: stayed home all day sneezing: WORTH IT. Consequence: I still have work tomorrow. Hope: Still snowed in tomorrow. Reality: probably still need to go to work. Realized: It's late, I'm sick, need to go to sleep. Goodnight loves.

The last month of my life has been the most unpredictable, busy, amazing and fun I've had in a while! I had an amazing birthday that I celebrated with special friends and cannot believe that I am already 23. I spent Christmas with my family and after the Christmas concert at my church, I spent time with friends hanging out in Portland. New Year's was spent with my church youth in prayer, worship and fun- after which I had an after party at my place. I have so enjoyed being able to spend so much time with friends this past month and am kind of sad that they have to go back to school and I have to spend more time at work. On the other hand I am ready for life to quiet down a little bit. One of my New Year's Resolutions has been to build routine into my life so that I can be more productive. While I was in school many things were chaotic and unpredictable- now that I have more stability in my life I want to work on creating good habits and sticking to them. The last chapter o...

With the move and work keeping me super busy, I haven't really been feeling that good ole' Christmas spirit and have tried so hard to instill it with Christmas music, cozy clothes and shopping. I just realized today that everything I was trying to do was just a huge distraction from the real reason I celebrate Christmas. I felt ashamed that I didn't realize how little it all mattered when I thought about the real reason for Christmas: JESUS! Thinking about Jesus being born has given me the greatest peace because there is no greater joy than knowing that God loved us so much that He sent His only Son! I leave you with one of my new favorite Christmas songs sung by the lovely Lauren Daigle and wish you guys many blessings as you prepare to celebrate the birth of the One True King. 

This week I have been reflecting on where I am in my life and my level of contentment and confidence in what I am doing. I am in a CS Lewis book club where we are reading Screwtape Letters and it has caused me to be more aware of which thoughts the devil puts into my head and how hard he works to tear me down. I have exactly the life that I pictured I would and the life that I wanted and planned for. Along the way I had a lot of hardships, but ultimately God still gave me what I wanted. What is baffling for me is that the devil can give me so much doubt and discontentment even in situations that I know are right for my life. I realized that there won't be a moment in my life where I will be perfectly content and be absolutely happy about every aspect in my life- not without a fight at least. Reading this book has showed me how actively I have to fight every day to stay alert and listen to the voice of God and tell myself truth instead of listening to the lies that the devil tries ...

Sabir and I finally moved out! It's such an exciting time for us and we are feeling very adulty with all of the decisions we have to make haha. We aren't done putting everything it's place, but we are getting there. We got our table up and are slightly ready for Christmas! 

Last week was a roller coaster for me- with having to adjust to a new job setting and role, planning the move and preparing for the holidays, I was honestly just mentally and emotionally drained by the time Friday rolled around. I finished off my work week well and spent Friday night relaxing at home and baking. On Saturday we headed to the mountain with our youth for sledding and a snowball fight. I made a resolution to get myself out there more often just because of the freedom and freshness that the air has. I took quite the beating when it came to the snowballs and got quite a rough facial exfoliation- I will admit that that one was my fault and I asked for it. After the mountain I was exhausted and contemplated skipping the book club meeting I was planning on going to, but after taking a nap on the way home, I decided that my commitment was more important. I cannot even begin to explain how encouraging it was to go there that night- I was exhausted but sat with eyes wide open and...

So crazy how often we plan our happiness for the future. The future is bound to have the same kinds of troubles as the present; learn to be happy now.