This week I have been reflecting on where I am in my life and my level of contentment and confidence in what I am doing. I am in a CS Lewis book club where we are reading Screwtape Letters and it has caused me to be more aware of which thoughts the devil puts into my head and how hard he works to tear me down. I have exactly the life that I pictured I would and the life that I wanted and planned for. Along the way I had a lot of hardships, but ultimately God still gave me what I wanted. What is baffling for me is that the devil can give me so much doubt and discontentment even in situations that I know are right for my life. I realized that there won't be a moment in my life where I will be perfectly content and be absolutely happy about every aspect in my life- not without a fight at least. Reading this book has showed me how actively I have to fight every day to stay alert and listen to the voice of God and tell myself truth instead of listening to the lies that the devil tries to get me down with.
I AM THE DAUGHTER OF A KING WHO IS NOT MOVED BY THE WORLD FOR MY GOD IS WITH ME & GOES BEFORE ME I DO NOT FEAR BECAUSE I AM HIS Got the encouragement I needed. It's so easy for me to start to feel diminished or weakened by the effects of the world. I very quickly start to think that my value lies in earthly things like my grades, my relationship status, my financial state or what kind of impression I can make. When those things don't go as planned I start to feel I am not valuable. It is crazy how quickly I am to listen to to the doubts and lies the devil feeds me.I put on a facade of confidence when inside I am broken and feel like I am insignificant, my mind runs a muck with doubt and fear that I will never be the person God wants me to be. I start to believe I am worthless, or a useless Christian, he tells me that I am not enough, I must do something else, I must be better, prettier, smarter; he distracts me from God by making me think my valu...