I resolve to let go of the small stuff. The insignificant little grievances that make me bitter and upset and that oppose my selfish standard for how I think I should be treated. In light of tragic events that have recently occurred in my church, I have been thinking about things I might later regret. When people I love begin to disappear from my life, what am I going to regret most about my relationships with them? And that is when I realized how so foolishly I had been holding on to bitter disappointments and keeping them buried deep in my heart- refusing to forgive and instead foster a deeper and more meaningful relationship with them. I realized that it is all of the little things I refuse to let go of: all of the memories of shortcomings and mistakes- that is what keeps me from loving with a Christ like love. Am I so perfect that I am not in need of such grace from others? Absolutely not! I struggled with this thought for a while and would not stop seeing my grievances as legitimate. During this process I realized that it doesn't really matter. It is so much more important to see how fragile life is- I do not want to spend mine being bitter towards others. Remember the good stuff and love them while you have them. My prayers go out to everyone who is grieving- courage dear heart.
I just loved today. This week I got quite sick and was couped up in my house for the last 3 days, only leaving my house to buy myself medicine, soup and tissues. I like to rest, but not that much. You can imagine how refreshing it was to get out of the house today and just go do some of my favorite things around Vancouver. Firstly, Tanya and I hit up Albina Press, then headed to Vintage Books where I always buy books based on their covers. Then we went on a walk at the waterfront, grabbed some dinner at Warehouse 23 and watched the sunset at Columbia. It's simple- but its enough to make me happy.