Ever since I finished school and got my new job I have been trying to find something new to chase. I have been taking pleasure in having a calmer pace of life and have enjoyed not really having anything to strive for. I thought that maybe with time something new would come along and my next big thing would just fall into my lap and I would be chasing some new success. Every person I had talked to about this told me something that didn't really satisfy my wonder- everything was so earth centered- "pursue traveling, or marriage, or education"- all things that still focused on me and finding earthly success. This past week I had the blessing of hosting someone in my home for the Pastor's Conference at my church and finally someone told me something else. I was so surprised that such simple advice had not already been given to me and that after such a long struggle, I hadn't thought of it myself. My next big chase is... to glorify God in every single situation of my life- to do every single thing in my life to the best of my ability so that it glorifies God to the utmost capacity. I realized that I was doing so many things mechanically and without any joy- I would do ministry and take care of my home and do kind things for people but none of them took everything in me. I realized that the only way to glorify God through my every day life was to give myself completely and use every ounce of my being for physically working for the glory of God. To be tired at the end of the day, to use my finances to bless others, to take care of my home as if Jesus himself was coming over- and to be so happy doing it.
I just loved today. This week I got quite sick and was couped up in my house for the last 3 days, only leaving my house to buy myself medicine, soup and tissues. I like to rest, but not that much. You can imagine how refreshing it was to get out of the house today and just go do some of my favorite things around Vancouver. Firstly, Tanya and I hit up Albina Press, then headed to Vintage Books where I always buy books based on their covers. Then we went on a walk at the waterfront, grabbed some dinner at Warehouse 23 and watched the sunset at Columbia. It's simple- but its enough to make me happy.