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What's Next?

Its such a strange feeling to feel "settled"- its weird because its supposedly what I always wanted but now that I have it, I'm not sure its so great anymore. When I was in school, there would be so much change going on- different classes, classmates, internships, settings- there was always something to look forward to, always anticipating change. Now I have a job that I see as permanent, I am moving out at the end of this month and then that's it. Is that it? I cannot imagine what the next change I can look forward to is and that slightly frightens me. Welcome to adult life Vee. It's almost sad to feel settled and strange to have to think of ways of creating and planning change for myself. Maybe in like half a years time or so I will figure out this new lifestyle and find ways of not getting bored. On the other hand, I'm excited to finally have opportunities to start crossing things off of my bucket list.

 

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