Last Sunday's youth sermon was truly convicting. And not just a "yeah, that was important" type of convicting, but really a "wow, I need to change my whole perspective and really hit the root issue here, truly repent and ask God to change my heart in this regard" type of convicting. The whole time I felt as though the sermon had been specially crafted for me- to really get me to analyze my own heart and realize how little I love the people that are truly my brothers and sisters. By nature I love to critique everything- I always thought it would be awesome to have a career where I get to criticize companies or stores and tell them what they are doing wrong. Unfortunately my sinful nature brings this into the way I deal with people. As I was listening to the sermon I realized that judging people was just my default setting. In my own head, to myself, I always concealed this as honest assessment or analyzing- instead of downright, sinful judging. When I would be convicted to change something about myself I would always look at others and wonder why they aren't doing the same and would automatically label them as less spiritually mature Christians; sometimes would go as far as assuming that they weren't saved. I didn't even realize that in judging others I was trying to take God's place as the Ultimate Judge. A lack of true application of Scripture and love for those around me was what drove me. The solution part of the sermon was my favorite because I always assumed that this was just part of my character and that I was just naturally a very analytical person- this is not so and God gives greater grace and changes our hearts. The simple solution was to just apply scripture! It's not my/your responsibility to determine who is saved/unsaved or spiritually mature/immature. "When you start seeing God for who He is, you stop noticing the differences between you and everyone else"- we are all of one body, striving for the same purpose! The action portion of this is to simply start loving others more; instead of judging, go and help others become more Christ like.
Today was the last day of the quarter and all I have left is 3 finals to complete next week. As I was driving home from PSU today, I was crossing the I 405 bridge and couldn't help but marvel at how much knowledge had to be applied in order to make something like that stand. I was already reflecting on everything I had learned this quarter and am just in awe at how our minds work. They have endless capacity- you can't learn too much, its impossible to fill your mind to the brink to where it's impossible to expand. It's impossible to even fathom all of the things that exist. When I realize this it makes me want to know everything- to know how every little detail in the Universe plays its part: even more I just want to imagine what God was thinking when He created all of these detailed mechanisms. How did He come up with all of these things?? This mentality points to the Creator of everything because I realize that anything I know is of no comparison to what God doe...